Last night i had one of the roughest concersations with my best friend, we talked about her not coming home from Iraq, and the likely hood of that happening. I tried as hard as i could not to cry, or be upset. I couldnt help it tears streamed down my face, on the inside i was screaming and sobbing and falling apart. I didnt say a word i just let her talk.
The day of her graduation i cried and cried and cried some more, because i knew where she was gonna go after that.
At my own graduation i cried, not because i was gonna miss high school but because i missed my best friend so much, she didnt see me graduate because the army took her away..
I never told her that.. Because i know how badly she wanted to be there..
While we were having this conversation i thought of what it would be like without her… All i could do was cry harder, id be so alone without her, id still be depressed everyday if she wasnt in my life, id still be suicidal…
She reminds me that my life is worth living and she shows me how to stay happy
Ive never been more comfortable with somebody in my life, when shes on leave im by her side every single day, then when that day comes when she has to pack up and fly back to her base.. I turn back into the lonely person i am and wait until she comes home again.
This year shes going to Germany, for a while, then shes being deployed to the war zone.. I just cant think of never seeing her again..
I love that girl with all of my heart and will do anything to make her happy.. I wish i was as brave and as strong as she is..
Forever my hero and the person i look to for everything…
I spent the day with her today.. She leaves monday…
I cant wait for her to be safely back home again next year.
I love you Michelle